Now I know I haven't been social
And at points I seem displacement
It's hard to look in someones eyes
When you don't know what your feeling
I've been reviewing past events
and working on acception
As many know, and some have been told
This life is full of reprobation
Broken trust, lies and lust
Have followed me through my ages
Theres been times where I've crossed all lines
Found death, yet felt so ageless
There's a part of me that swears
There won't be any tears
When I ride away on that final ferry
But who would close me eyes
And put coins on either side
Other then the God I can't see clearly
There's a part of me thats desperate
For a little conversation
But I don't really know what to say
There's a part of me that greets you
Each time I get to see you
Even though I might look the other way
There's a part of me that hates this
Each day it becomes so senseless
I don't know if I want to go another day
There's a part of me that gleans
On everything you mean
When the thoughts you think find words to come and play
There's a part of me that see's
How beautiful this all could be
If we put down our catastrophic ways
There's a part of me that hopes
One day I'll get the joke
And we can all laugh, enjoy the light of day
Now...I know I haven't been social
But I'm trying not to be local
Because I know these songs go
When you don't know any bar chords
When the lyrics don't rhyme perfectly
And the singers full of uncertainty
Doesn't know how to sit straight
Or left his shoes by the front gate
I'm going away to pray
I don't know what else to say
I don't know for how many days
But I promise I'll learn to sing
And learn how to live in the way I mean to